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2011-05-24T02:21:00.002+08:00

The Essence of a Relationship.

(From a note I read….)

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn’t love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn’t have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn’t want anything from me, but needed a month’s notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month’s time and she didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.

She requested that every day for the month’s duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife’s divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn’t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don’t tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outsidethe door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn’t looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn’t tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me… she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it’s time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn’t noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

I drove to office…. jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind…I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won’t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn’t value the details of our lives, not because we didn’t love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I’ll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.

My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push thru with the divorce.— At least, in the eyes of our son—- I’m a loving husband….

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse’s friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy.

2011-05-24T02:16:00.004+08:00

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2011-05-21T03:05:00.003+08:00

OMGOD , 2nd night and i'm falling asleep and i need to hold on for another 4 hours , killing my youth man this job . One more night and i'm off from this shits for 2 days , which is makes me feel abit more better .(Y)

Afew more hours to meet baby , tonight supposed to meet but .. yeah sooo just meet tomorrow .

2011-05-06T03:33:00.003+08:00

Night shift now , first night is always a killer . Miss my baby sooo much ... He's sleeping cos later got school . Both of my atm card with baby , meeting baby tomorrow , AND I SERIOUSLY CAN'T WAIT FOR HIS HUG , BITEx AND kixxes !!!

2011-05-04T02:48:00.003+08:00

HELLO RUSTY BLOG !!

hahah ! Sorry i had been very busy for work , work and work ... Was thinking of going USS , who's with me ??!!! TEXT ME !! hahah !! Will be back to blog tomorrow !!! (what time already sia !)

goodnight ~~

2011-04-21T22:08:00.001+08:00

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2011-04-13T19:20:00.007+08:00

Tell me what's life without people whom you can trust . I did trust the wrong person , and it happens to me almost all the time , cheated and slutty backstabbers acting behind my back , obviously they know that i win them thats why they can only say me behind my back HELL YEAHHH !

Baby cousin lived with me when i was younger , everyday we will be chased around the house with cane because we hardly kept all the toys after we played ! And we always end up hugging or crying with each other , sometimes even when we felt sooo bored , we even played with her mother make-up !! Everything was sucha sweet childhood memories , that is only kept with me and her .

2011-04-11T23:59:00.003+08:00

Fuck all those talking .
I'm getting depressed .
I need drug.
I need to jump down the building for 10 times .
I need to stop thinking everything is perfectly fine .

I'm dying , like secretly dying . Am i really that bad ? REALLY ?? I think so . I just don't know what to do . I just need everything will be like last time , but i know its 'dream on stephrene , you think it will happen uh ? wait until you die .'

FUCK EVERYTHING .

2011-04-10T00:57:00.004+08:00

WOHOOO !!! MY LAST NIGHT !!!

Hope everything smooth and time please pass quickly leh . Yesterday night was a traumatic night , bringing the same person to go toilet 12 times ??!! IMAGINED . And new patient ended up is my ex-bf-good-friend !!!

Took a cab home and slept at around 9 plus . But i'm still tired , ESP after the steamboat dinner with family .

COUNTING DOWN , 4 MORE HOURS TO GO !!!!

2011-04-08T04:17:00.003+08:00

woots , my first night tonight. Dearest came over to meet me , happy ttm !!! You'll never find a man like him !!!! Okay starting my work soon !!!! CHAOZZ !

2011-03-23T16:44:00.003+08:00

Waiting for that pretty boy to prepare and we are heading to flying kite later !!! Finally a good rest day !!! I'm like sooo lazy to go amk hub to buy facial cotton ZzZEEs. Okay baby should be reaching anytime soon !! Will update more pics tmr hopefully ..

2011-03-22T22:41:00.002+08:00

Hello bloggie , i'm sooo busy that i dont really have time to update !! Well this few days was obviously fucked up days for me , everything just don't seems right , and i'm tired of it . I don't trust anyone , so i prefer to keep some promblems within myself .. Hmmm .... Why am i earning sooo little that i cant really buy stuffs that i wanted long time ago . ARGHHH . FUCK .

2011-03-03T02:29:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 1 YEAR 4 MONTHS AND 5 DAYS BABYBOY !!!!

- lovely baby cousin

2011-02-26T02:19:00.003+08:00

shattered .

2011-02-25T02:45:00.003+08:00

Glad to have this kindda guy in my life now , Muhammad Aniq bin ismail .

2011-02-25T00:03:00.003+08:00

HELLO SCANDAL , LONG TIME SINCE I UPDATE YOU .

Guess what , i'm doing my night again . This time round with yuwen and wardah , HAPPY !!! This few days i sooo busy , trying to manage my business . This is sooo not me , why ? i have lying around spending money like water , soo now i think its time for me to earn more . Supported by my family , friends and loverboy , managed to get good results with my first spree , now i have alrdy have orders for the spree 2 and i hope it will get better !!!

2011-02-21T14:21:00.004+08:00

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Make-ups price range from $10-$15 !!!!

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2011-02-13T04:19:00.003+08:00

MY 3RD NIGHT IS ENDING IN 3 HOURS TIME !!!! Babyboy came over and meet me for my supper just now , really super duper happy to see him !!! Starting my real work soon (=

why you should win a pair of movie tickets to I Am Number Four preview screening

2011-02-11T01:39:00.003+08:00

why i should win a pair of movie tickets to I Am Number Four preview screening ??

Was looking through nuffnang and came across this , soo i shall try my luck to win the tickets ! I Always love to watch movie with my love ones esp DISNEY'S movies !!! And after watching the trailer , i can't wait to know what is the ending !!!! Hope that i can win the pair of tickets !!!

Catch I Am Number Four Movie starting from 24th February 2011 and join the official Disney Studios Singapore Facebook & Twitter page!

6 wonders !

2011-02-08T15:19:00.008+08:00

HELLO NEW YEAR !
Its sooo nice to have you here !
with lotsa red packets filled with different colours of notes !
Meet ups with relatives and having awesome dinner every night !
Meet ups with my dear girls !
And meeting up my dear baby boy !!!

2011-01-21T23:37:00.003+08:00

AHAHHAHAHAS !!! OHH MY GOD I NEED TO END MY NIGHT SHIFT SOON =/

1 MORE NIGHT TO GO !!!!

FAMILY

2011-01-16T22:49:00.004+08:00

YYOOOOOHOOOHHHOOOOO !!!!!

i'm at home now , just came back from a dinner with family. $400 bucks for a dinner ,Super xpensive !!!! But the food was awesome !!! And guess what ?

ITS GRANDMOTHER AND GRANDFATHER'S TREAT !!!

A DAY OUT WITH LOVERBOY

2011-01-15T00:49:00.007+08:00

HAD A GREAT DAY WITH SAYANG !!!

midnight , i recieved a called from babyboy saying that he had put something outside my house for me . I was shocked because he told me he was going to sleep 1 hour ago ! So i went out to check it out . SHOCKED TO THE MAX , i saw a speaker just outside my door !! SOOOO HAPPY UNTIL I CRIED . Imagine if your bf broke alrdy and then still buy this for you ?? And i'm super sorry to babyboy that i thrown temper on him just before that . I LOVE MY SPEAKER FROM SAYANG !!!

Meet babyboy for lunch today and we headed to nabins for shisha , then talked bout valentine's day present and stuff . I WANNA COMPLAINT !!! WHILE HE WAS RESTING ON ME , HE BITE MY TIGHT AND NOW I HAVE A TERRIBLE MARK ON MY TIGHT )=

Went to watch the fighter , super damn boring show .. Went to shisha again and now i'm back home, giving some time for baby to enjoy with his gay friends too ! HAHHAHAH !

LOVE YOU BABYBOY !!!

present from baybeehh !

i miss my love

2011-01-12T23:51:00.003+08:00

WOHOO !!! Chinese new year and valentine's day is coming , and i need lotsa money to buy stuffs , and i don't know what to get for loverboy for this year valentine's day , if i ask him he confirm gonna get something for selina(bike) . Bring him for a brazilian waxing ?? HAHAHAH!!

For me , i wanted sooo many stuffs but it will take a long time to get it , zzz.... But i won't ask baby for it , cos its way tooo expensive for him as a student . Maybe i just get him as my present ?? He really works hard for us , everyday go school , after school will still go work until 10 plus or 11 . HEART PAIN TO SEE HIM SOOOO TIRED . Where the hell you can find this type of guy alrdy ?? Nowdays are just those lazy mother fucker trying to get money from girls . This type of guy are everywhere , no sense of responsiblity .

I MISS BOYFRIEND SOOO MUCH , SOO MUCH SOOOO SSOOOO MUCHHHH , I KNOW I'M NOISY , BUT I DON'T CARE . I JUST MISS HIM SOO MUCH )=

2011-01-10T02:03:00.003+08:00

But for now we are young, and let’s just count all the beautiful things that we see.

happiest couple 2011

2011-01-09T12:01:00.003+08:00

I NEED HELP !!!!

DEAREST FRIENDS , PLEASE HELP TO LIKE MY PHOTO AT http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=485089771850&set=a.483697781850.271098.186174346850 , YOU MUST LIKE THE PAGE FIRST THEN YOU WILL SEE THE 'LIKE' APPEAR UNDER MY PHOTO !! SPREAD THE LOVE OKAY ? THANKS !!! ♥♥♥

2011-01-09T01:34:00.002+08:00

THE DIFFERENCES BETWEEN FUCKING & MAKING LOVE.

Fucking: Bending her over being so deep in her pussy, uncontrollably pulling her hair, arching her back just so she can feel more of you.
Making love: Taking your time stroking her inner walls ever so slowly hearing her moans as if they were your own.

Fucking: Chanting “What’s my name?!” Smacking her ass as a sign letting her know that her pussy is yours.
Making love: Whispering in her ear “Baby, I love you.” “You mean the world to me.” and actually mean it.

Fucking: First cum first served.
Making love: Making sure she is satisfied before you are.

Fucking: Get up looking for your clothes.
Making love: After you’re done, you both lay at rest, breathing at a rapid pace and neither one of you decides to talk because breaking the silence would ruin the moment and you realize that both hearts beat in unison.

genting trip

2011-01-06T16:37:00.025+08:00

GENTING TRIP WITH BABY BOY , 28-31 DEC 2010 .

thailand trip

2011-01-01T12:17:00.028+08:00

MY BLOG IS GETTING RUSTY !!!

I'M FULLY OCCUPIED ON DECEMBER . WENT OVERSEA TWICE AND ATTEND A GRAND WEDDING AT GRAND PARK HOTEL SINGAPORE .

ALL THIS PICTURES BELOW ARE FROM MY THAILAND TRIP WITH FAMILY ON MID DECEMBER , ENJOY !!!!

- gifts for babyboy from thailand .

- and he got one for me too !!!

- all this only for one day !!!!

- got sooo well after a jet ski ride !

- in the speed boat to coral island .

- i don't need a parachure , baby if i got you , baby if i got you , i don't need a parachure.

- dress up , and i look super fugly .

- ehh , don't need helmet ah?

2010-12-17T00:31:00.003+08:00

OH MY GOD THIS IS UBER CUTE !

okay , 6 more hours i need to wake up to prepare for the flight . Then why am i still not sleeping but hugging my laptop now ... Zzz ..

MY SHOPPING LIST .

GRAND-PARENTS , LOVERBOY , V.I.P(CLOSE FRIENDS) . THATS ALL .

OKAY I'M GOONNNA SLEEP NOW , SEE YOU SINGAPOREANS IN 5 DAYS TIME , LOVE YOU !!

food

2010-12-15T22:53:00.003+08:00

Wanted to blog about food but i was too lazy to do so ... Maybe next time ? Btw , isn't this bento cute ??? I made this for my loverboy 1 year ago . HAhaHA , sooo long ago right ?? I was thinking of making one more for him maybe earlier jan next year . But i'm suck in designing . I can only imagine and that will took like almost 3 hours to finish everything . Shall make one bento with faces ?? or two cute person holding each other hand . BUT , not tooo cute if not he will not want to eat ehh !!!!

I can't wait for my bangkok trip !!! 2 more days only !!!!! Will write out what i'm going to get there , confrim spending like mad !!!!

OKAY I'M GOING TO FB NOW , SEE YOU THERE !!!

2010-12-15T00:24:00.003+08:00

Hahahahahahahha !!!
This isss way way tooo creepy uh ?
Once you blink everything tangle together ??!!
I wish my will grow longer . (Not till this extend i mean )

My fatty went to malaysia with his family alrdy )=
Left me sooo bored at sing )=
But then its okay ,
I'M MEETING HIM TOMORROW !!! (happy like one kind)

OKAY SEE YOU AT FB , I'M ACTIVE THERE ((=

safe sex

2010-12-14T22:33:00.004+08:00

Nobody has a body to die for.

Safe sex means making sure you don't get anyone else's blood, semen, vaginal fluids, or breast milk in your body -- and protecting your partners too! Condoms, latex surgical gloves, and plastic wrap are the only ways to protect yourself and your partner from STDs and HIV, but they're not foolproof. You've got to use them correctly every time you have sex.

Always use a condom :

If you're going to suck your partner's dick (blowjob), put a condom on it first. Try non-lubricated or flavored condoms for this. Whatever you do, don't get semen (cum) in your mouth, because you could get an STD or HIV that way. If you have a sore throat or small cuts on your gums (say from brushing your teeth), there's a risk of HIV going from the semen into your blood stream.

If you're doing someone with a sex toy -vegetable, dildo, vibrator, or whatever put a condom on that thing! Don't switch the toy from butthole to vagina, or from one person's body to another, until you put a new condom on it.
Some people think that putting on a condom is too much work when you're supposed to be having fun. But it's easy for condoms to be really fun and erotic. Be creative!

HIV ?

HIV (Human Immunodeficiency Virus) is the virus believed to cause AIDS. When someone has HIV (is HIV+), their body has a hard time fighting off infections and diseases. Anybody can get HIV.

You should know that at least 20% of people who find out they have AIDS are in their 20s. (OMFG)These people probably got HIV when they were in high school, because it can take years for an HIV+ person to develop AIDS.
HIV is transmitted from one person to another when certain body fluids are mixed-blood (including menstrual blood), semen, vaginal fluid, and breast milk.

This is how you can get HIV:

-having vaginal or anal "intercourse" without a condom
-licking someone's clit or dick without a condom or plastic wrap
-Sharing needles
-from mother to child during pregnancy, birth, and breast feeding
-receiving a blood transfusion (luckily HIV is rarely transmitted this way anymore)

You can't get HIV from:

-kissing, sweat, tears
-hugging
-food
-toilet seats
-swimming pools
-giving blood

Haiyo , sooo why not just go to 7/11 to buy a pack before making love ? I mean its to protect both party right ?

2010-12-14T15:42:00.003+08:00

2010-12-13T01:48:00.002+08:00

baby's sister's wedding

2010-12-12T22:40:00.010+08:00

ATTENDED KAK ANISAH'S WEDDING TODAY .
it was held at the malay village at geylang serai ,
my first malay wedding i ever went .
Took loads and lots of food bcus it was FREE FLOWW ~~
Got closer to baby's family and i think he have thousands of cousins,
even his best friend turns out to be his , COUSIN ?!!!!
Headed to shisha at bali lane and reached home at 9 plus .

ENJOY THE PICS !

2010-12-11T00:50:00.003+08:00

HAHAHAHHAS !!!!
Look at those faces ??!!!!
Simply made me laugh like crazy !!!

NUFFNANG'S FREE TICKET !

2010-12-11T00:12:00.005+08:00

Nuffnang will be giving out 80 pairs of premiere tickets (in 3D) and 20 pairs of complementary tickets !!!!

BUT HOW ????????

To win yourself a pair of tickets to the movie screening, simply follow these steps:
1. “Like” the Tron SG Facebook Fanpage here: http://facebook.com/TronSG
2. Play any of the 3 applications on the application tab.
3. Take a screenshot of your participation.
4. Blog about it and include the screenshot taken in the previous step
Lastly, submit details in the form below!

http://www.nuffnang.com.sg/blog/

HURRY !!!! ENDS ON THE 11/12/10 2359HRS !!!!

( I hope i can win the ticket badly , cus' bf like this show & i'm gonna try this out for him. )

2010-12-08T00:57:00.003+08:00

SOMETIMES WORDS JUST FALLS ON DEAF EARS .

Fustrated about some stupid excuses . Reasons and excuses which was not done after said . Am i stupid to listen ? Seriously did you ever take notice of my changes ? Sorry to say that you slowly taking for granted for what i had done . Oh god , why everything changes sooo fast ?

My stomach is killing me to the core .

BUT WHO CARES ???

2010-12-05T15:43:00.009+08:00

HELLO EVERYONE !!!!!

I went to ubin with sweetheart on friday .
After we reached not long , we immediately rented to bike-cycle !!!
Baby was all the way infront of me . ( i guess i was too slow and FAT ...)
Not long after we reached celestial jetty , it began to rain heavily .
Baby and me spend our romantic time at a shelter .
Talked and laughed sooo much .
Waited for more than a hour , we decided to cycle back to the jetty with the heavy rain !
I was laughing all the way and i already had no strengh to cycle anymore !!
Contact lens was out and my make ups go gaga when i reached ubin jetty !!
Went to changi for dinner and everything went smoothly ..

THANKS BABY FOR THE WONDERFUL DAY !!!
NOT POSSIBLE WITHOUT HIM (=

-ADORABLE !!!!

- super mad handsome i think !!! hehehhe !

MUSCLE !!

2010-12-02T19:21:00.001+08:00

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2010-12-01T16:33:00.000+08:00

ADEQ'S BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION .

2010-11-28T02:42:00.002+08:00

2010-11-28T00:21:00.001+08:00

Boy: I broke up with her.
His Best Friend: What happened?
Boy: She’s just too much for me.
His Best Friend: What makes you say that? What did she do wrong?
Boy: Well, for one.. She only cared about her appearance. Always had to look good, always took forever to get dressed! So insecure..
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she wanted to keep your eyes locked on her? She wanted you to see that you have the prettiest girl under your sleeve and not think otherwise? I see..
Boy: Oh.. Well.. She’d often call me or text me asking where I am, who I’m with, telling me not to smoke, not to drink. She’s so clingy!
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she cares about your well being? Because she cares about you a lot? And her greatest fear is losing you. I see..
Boy: But.. Uhh.. Well, she’d always cry when I say something slightlymean. She can’t handle anything. She’s a crybaby!
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she has feelings? And because she just wanted to hear you say you love her? I see..
Boy: I.. Well! You know, she’d get jealous easily. I could barely talk to other girls! She’s so annoying! I had to hide it from her so she wouldn’t bitch about it.
His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she just wanted you to commit to her? She thought you were faithful, but you lied so she could find out later and hurt even more? She just wanted the guy she loves the most to love only her. I see..
Boy: Well, she..
His Best Friend: You broke up with her because she’s good for you? She just wanted the best for you? She’s broken now because you were selfish. Are you proud?
Boy: I broke her heart.. Because I couldn’t see what was happening.. What happened to me?
His Best Friend: You lost the girl that loved you like no one else could. You see? You didn’t want her when all she ever wanted was you. THAT’S what happened.
cinta: this is good. do read.

2010-11-06T03:53:00.001+08:00

fuck .

Am i that bad ? A wrost girl that appeared in your life ?

2010-11-06T02:35:00.001+08:00

2010-10-29T23:20:00.008+08:00

ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY WITH LOVE .

Its been a year , everything seems perfect when i'm with you . You really understands me very well . And you always give in to me whenever i always tried to win . And i'm waiting to be yours forever . I LOVE YOU ANIQ ISMAIL .

2010-10-22T22:44:00.003+08:00

I WILL GET YOUR HEART RACING ,

IF YOU REALLY WANNA PLAY .

ohhh my gooosshh !!! 4 more days to one year anniversary with my loverboy . Okay , sounds quite long right ?? Can you imagine how he's able to tahan me ?? I mean my attitude and everything i did to make you pissed off enough . I'm a kid to him , a BIG KID .

2010-10-21T22:02:00.001+08:00

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2010-10-21T20:17:00.003+08:00

Everyone will live their own fairytale . i choose mine , how about yours ??

DOn't ever look back to the past , even though some are just happy little short memories.

I looking into my future .

I wanna work harder to earn more money for my future family .

create every possibble happiness .

And live happily ever after .

I always can't stop talking about my boyfriend, aniq .

WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY ??????

REASON ITS SIMPLE .

He's really a special malay guy that caught my chinese heart .

He will hugged me even thought he saw my ugliest moment .

He will share everything he have . ( This include money )

He will give everything he can , to make me smile and laughed like crazy .

OUR LOVE IS TOUGHER THAN ANYTHING YOU SAW IN YOUR LIFE .

2010-10-15T22:08:00.005+08:00

HAPPY 7TH BIRTHDAY TO MY LITTLE BROTHER , LUCAS !

bought a adidas water bottle for him , as he requested from me since 2 days ago . Promised him a good meal after my pay day , which is like 9 more days ! Hope he enjoyed today !!!!

LOVE YOU DIDI !!!!!

2010-10-14T17:26:00.007+08:00

Labrador Park with LOVERBOY ♥

LOVERBOY bought me to Labrador Park on tuesday . As if you know , i'm addicted to shiok's Nasi Ayam Penyet located at jln kedek . So babyboy decided to packed to labrador for our semi-romantic dinner . Everything was sooo awesome and we stayed over for like 3 hours ???!!! After that as usual shisha at nabins . Everything was soooo super cool !!!! THANKS TO BABY FOR HIS GREAT PLANNED !!!! HHHOOOOORRAAAYYYY ~~~~

Enjoyed .

2010-10-08T18:48:00.009+08:00

HELLO HELLO !!!!

loverboy and me went to fullerton hotel for chocolate buffet last week . And, its my treat !! hahahhs !!! We did not managed to eat alot because it is sooo filling !!! $90 bucks for me is nothing , compared to the love we had . Hope he enjoyed it , because he's my everything now .

Without failed , i went to shisha again yesterday with my LOVERBOY . Oredered 8 bottles and happily finished everything except one . Then fitri and hafeez joined us . Babyboy completed his responsibility and happily reached home at 4.30am .

I remember last two days when babyboy sending me home , he suddenly turns back and say :

aniq : baby !!!

me : yes ???

aniq : you're the best girlfriend i ever had in my life . thank you baby .

me : !!! thanks baby !!! youre my best too .

He smiled and turned back . I start to cried and i knew inside my heart , that nobody can't seperate us .

aniq , i love you very much .

2010-10-07T12:17:00.002+08:00

hello everyone !!!

i just woke up . Oh god , i'm starting my night shift tmr . with a patient who is a DIL MAX , i'm sooo terrible scared . But nevermind , i will just hope for the best then =/

Met babyboy yesterday night. As usual , shisha at sultan gate (= talked about bikes non stop !!!! Planned for our 1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY!!! will post it here once it is confrim (=

take care and don't take drugs .

2010-09-30T15:22:00.002+08:00

ENJOYING AT NASRIN ALSO !!! HAHAHHAS !!!!

omg i have no time to write more alrdy !!! out with zai and baby for movie !!!

2010-09-28T15:44:00.006+08:00

hello peeps !!!

im out with yeerou & yongxin ytd , went to bugis and shopped like mad !! hahahahs !!! bought this super uber foxy look jumpsuit for only 15 bucks !!!

went a super cool buffet at nugis junction. ( if im not wrong , name of the restaurant is sweet dreams// sweet treats ) . beautiful food and plus chocolate fondue !!!!

met yongxin for dinner at orchard ion's xingwang cafe . good food with good price !!! i love those crush peanut little balls !!!

met baby for shisha ytd night , he's sooo happy cus our darling bike just had a mini over- haul !! smooth engine .

enjoy these pictures alright !!!

2010-09-23T11:52:00.005+08:00

wish to have this with me now .
let god decide what will happen to me after i drink it .
i'm ill now .
too ill to eat any awesome goodies .
vomitting every single thing i ate .
never been sooo sick before ,
imagine how to you feel when you vomitted 7 times and diarhhoea more than 15 times ???
i feel like flying .
almost admitted into hospital on tuesday ,
doc suspected GE and she was telling me bout my tachycardiac .
advised me to be on drip and stay over for observation & blood test .
at the end ,
i signed a form that stated i won't blame the hospital for whateveris going to happen to me (blah blah blah)
i've been rotting at home since then .

- attended my aunt and uncle's 10 years wedding anniversary . it was a very special occasion as i seldom meet them up , they both are as sweet as baby and me . they looked like its their 1 year anniversary !!! the hubby of hers holds her everywhere she goes , afraid that she will fall , awwwww....

2010-09-19T00:53:00.007+08:00

wohooo ~~~~

sucessfully loaded pics tacken from this week !!! this year its my first time to go jalan raya , and the best thing is im going with babyboy !!! (AWWWW!)

i cant wait for 26 !!!! it will be our 11th month-sary and we will be going out with his friends for jalan raya !!! YAAAAHOOO !!!

life had been sooo unpredictable and filled with happiness with aniq around me , goonna be his good girl (=

alright , i'm gonna sleep now , tmr wanna suprise him early in the morning at his work place !!!

GOODNIGHT EVERYONE !!! =D

2010-09-08T14:25:00.001+08:00

2010-09-08T14:14:00.003+08:00

OH MY !!!!

is this supposed to be baby ??

ya lah its him , but its two years ago . hahahah!! saw this pic at his office's skills profile . He looked sooo different right ? indeed he change to a better boy .

IloveYOU ANIQ .

2010-09-07T14:01:00.003+08:00

2010-09-04T14:36:00.007+08:00

sorry for those late updates , dont really have time to update my blog nowdays . i'm a very busy woman . haha !

i have a great gang friends at work , they really did spiced up my working life .

GIRLS !!!! THANK YOU !!!!

and what is more important than a understanding boyfriend who stands by you no matter what ???!!

we will be celebrating our 1 year anniversary at genting this year . we planning to go bali on next year's march holidays . i really cant wait for our mini-honey-moons .

2010-08-27T03:04:00.008+08:00

I'M 19 ALREADY !!!!

HAD A GREAT DAY WITH KAR WANI & MATAIR (=

thanks everyone for the birthday wish !!!

big prawn !!!!

fish spa with baby (=

out with yingting !!!

2010-08-20T13:04:00.007+08:00

''When it comes to love, express it, when it's too late you'll be forever regret it.''

went to break- fast at changi village on wednesday . felt super thirsty & hungerrrryyyy but i tried to tahan .. at the end , i drank soya bean -,-

after meeting hafeez & fitri , we went to grandlink for lan game . expected , i lose to him . )=

really had a good day with baby , altout things are simple , i dont expect more . what i want to do now is just to concentrate on my work , family , friends and baby . i dont want to regret further in my life .

baby youre tooo amazing , you created sparks and rainbow in my life . without you , my life will be dark .

YAYANG , I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH .

2010-08-16T22:45:00.004+08:00

i just hope that he could be forever happy .

HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYY BABY BOYYY !!!! 19TH ALRDY !!!!
had invited some friends to joined in the mini celebration for baby. at least i've know that he's happy and contented bout everything i did for him ...

enjoy those pics !

2010-08-07T00:45:00.005+08:00

''I know I’m full of insecurities , but I promise you there’s a part of me worth keeping.''

out with baby yesterday night , went to lau pat sat to eat my fav puteh been hoon goreng !!! after that went to take pics with merlion , acted like tourist !! hhahahh !!!! went to my favourite bridge again & slack there with 5 cans of c . went to makan after ........

okay lah , i promised him i will sleep at 1.30 (=

goodnight boys & girls .

2010-08-04T18:44:00.005+08:00

went to pastamania for lunch yesterday with love , while waiting for his pay... went to shisha again at night. then baby's brother passed him a helicopter !! as soon as he seat down , he quickly opened up the box and explored . with his cute expression like a kid , i love him MORE !!!!! went to mac for supper & baby send me home after that (=

we cant stop something called 'love' .

2010-08-03T01:30:00.008+08:00

meet baby today after a damn good 9 hours of sleep . baby bring me to a bridge near indoor stadium after makan , ROMANTIC KAN ???

he's the first and only that knows what i really need & want . the way he looked into my eyes when i was lying down on his lap , i felt AWESOME-LY IN LOVE .

well , i promised him i will sleep after blogging , fetching baby from school tmr , so i better sleep early ...

goodnight to you boys & girls .

happy to have you guys .

2010-08-02T17:05:00.007+08:00

i missed attachment ,
i missed school ,
i missed classes ,
i missed cliques in school ,
i missed getting scolding by teachers .

met my attachment cliques . really hope to spend more time with them , but i'm on night( tsk tsk ). took sooo many pictures once we saw each other !!! hahaha !!!! i planning to book a shisha table for us !!! why not ??

pictures .

2010-07-30T11:37:00.010+08:00

KITE KITE KITE =D

took a off day ytd to spend more time with baby , decided to fly kite after buying some gorceries for the pit .

went to marina barrage to fly the kite !!! ( it was my virgin try. ) spending around 10 mins struggling with the treads with baby .

after another 10 mins , we manage to fly our kite with a bear at the back of the kite !!! awwww , it looks cute & adorable .

moral of the story is ???

the kite flew off due to the tread broke and baby and me did not managed to catch it . )= i was mad sad and started to drop tears !!!! MY FIRST TIME EYYY !!!!!

baby hugged me and he kept on saying sorry to me , he felt sooo guilty as i really love the kite .

trying to make me smile again , he bought me to orchard for a ride . felt sooo hungry and we went to mac at bendemeer .

after eating , we started to camwhore :
(my baby is such a photogenic chap !!! love him ssooooo much lah! )

(this is one of my fav ! )

(awwwwwwwww)

DSLR =D

2010-07-27T23:22:00.009+08:00

wohhhhoooo !!!!!

HAPPY 9 MONTHS BABEY !!!! THANKS FOR THE DSLR & ALL THEE LOVEE !!!

on the bike , iim super excited until i super high on the bike ! baby kept asking me to sit still.( if not a pig can fly -,-)

reach expo & a guy stopped us immediately after we stepped into the hall , blah blah blah , he talked like shooting bullet on us liddat , not stopped & irritating ttm ! after i rejected his offers after 15 mins , he face became black like a charcoal but babey just drag me away !

wasted trip to expo cus' the camera no more stock ( haiya )!

so we went to courts@tamp instead .

after buying the camera , we went to shisha@nabins .

i swear i'm super happy & i really dk what to say but just kept smiling ! i've waited for months for this dslr & baby made my dreams come true . i guessed i alrdy found a man who really knows how to make me smile even when i'm crying . not every man can do that , i know . i had sooo much ex and now i knew i have been wasting too much time on them . aniq made me realised what true love is . ( AND IF YOU REALLY LOVE THE PERSON , YOU DON'T NEED TO CONTROL THEM , THEY WILL STILL FOLLOW YOU CLOSLY .)

okay , i'm done writing
gonna wait for baby's call .

ENJOY THOSE PICTURES .

2010-07-24T23:59:00.004+08:00

LOVE , can you tell me who are you ?
why am i desperate to have you in my life ?
you harmed me again & again but i won't leave you .
in fact , i cant live without you ,LOVE .

i cant wait for my dslr tmr !!

HOLY MOLLY !!!

first picture will take it with my beloved aniq .

thanks babeyy !!

today my mood not sooo good .

being cursing too much i guessed.

I THINK I'M HAVING PMS NOW !!!

am i ?????

tsk ..

oh well , i guessed i need a list of ' things to bring ' on baby's birthday pit . i booked a pit soooo near to mac area , so guests dont need to walk far far , ( i good right ??! ) . hahaha !!! gonna help baby to snap pictures with his friends . i really hope he will be really happy on that day cus he might meet some frinds that he did not have a chance to see for a long time .. okay lah !!! i dont wanna write a essay tonight , cus im super freaking tired after 4 days afternoon !!! and tmr morning shift somemore -,- (POWER LAH !)

GOODNITE world .

2010-07-19T23:08:00.004+08:00

finally my throat healed alrdy !!!! its been weeks since the last shisha session with baby !!!! awwwww !! baby attended my cousin birthday pit held at pasir ris . had really a good day with him yesterday . baby's birthday coming alrdy !!!! hahahhahahah !!!! i'm planning a mini party for him . he told me that no one has ever celebrated with him . i'm soooo gonna be the first one (= .
after i started work , i slowly realised i'm a very lucky girl . baby always be there for me for everything , daddy and mummy is my pillars of support , granny and aunt treated me sooo well , like a princess . i had 3 more wonderful ppl in my life , my lovely cousin . she's part of me too . and no matter what happened, she still stands by me too . And not forgetting my two playful brother and sister , they added joy in my life . i love my life .

2010-07-10T14:18:00.003+08:00

met sara darling yesterday at bugis while waiting for baby to finish his work . went to sukudo for dinner (= talked bout lotsa stuffs , (as usual) . then this girl started to ask me to go OCH with her !!!! wth !!!! dont know why she is intrested to go in and explore! sara and me had make a sudden decision to extend our hair . hahah ! but the result was not sooo pleased )= . enjoyed my day with her . gonna meet her at least once every month .

2010-07-07T22:38:00.004+08:00

went for a spin at amk ytd with baby after his work ,tout he was like working like a mad boy for 5 hours , he still wanna meet me for 2 hours even tout he's totally shag ! did i told you bout me wrote a letter for him ??? he immediately cant-wait to open it up . settled down at mac , he opened it up with a cute smile on his face . telling him how much i love him in the letter , he immediately kiss me and thanked me for it . enjoyed my day with him , but ended up only 2 hours of sleep before waking up for work .. but i know all its worth while because im spending the time with him ...

took on a nanny job today , taking care of my little bro & sis . mummy and daddy went for promotion dinner .. DADDY GET PROMOTED TO ASP II !! CONGRATS !!!!

was reading xiaxue's blog , saw that she went for lip fillers & nose lifting etc. feel like wannna try the nose lifting and smile line ,, should i should i ???? gonna ask baby about it yeah , but i think he wont let me have it . hahaha !!! counting down for my dslr !!! 18 more days stephrene (big smile on face)

alright ,, gonna get ready for my daily night chat with baby !!!! bye !!!